October 12, 2018

Why My Novel About A Transgender Kid Isn’t A Memoir About Mine

I wrote fiction instead of memoir because I didn’t want to tell my kid’s story. It’s not mine to tell.

Story By: Laurie Frankel

Why My Novel About A Transgender Kid Isn’t A Memoir About Mine

I wrote fiction instead of memoir because I didn’t want to tell my kid’s story. It’s not mine to tell. Story By: Laurie Frankel

The question I get asked most often about my third novel, This Is How It Always Is, is why it’s not a memoir. People wonder why I decided to make up a story about the parents of a transgender kid when in fact I am the parent of a transgender kid.

The short answer is one I am truly lucky to be able to give: it would have been a really short, really boring memoir.

My family and I are blessed to live in a progressive city where gifted, passionate teachers at our public elementary school champion social justice and diversity curriculums and where we find ourselves surrounded by an open, enlightened community. They have meant my kid’s gender transitions have been embraced and supported. You want your book to be dramatic, heartbreaking, devastating, shocking, and unpredictable. You want the opposite for your child. We have been very fortunate, so I can tell you why I didn’t write a memoir in one word: luck.

But have I ever limited myself to one word? I have not. Occupational hazard I suppose. So I will add that another reason I wrote fiction instead of memoir is that I didn’t want to tell my kid’s story. It’s not mine to tell. She may or may not ever want to tell it herself and will certainly have an entirely different story than mine besides. I was very keen to explore the stories and issues I do in this book while still protecting my child’s privacy, which means this story is about a transgender child, but it is not about my transgender child, and it is about a mother, but that mother is not me.

And never mind all that, I was primed for writing fiction by none other than the child in question. Parenting is great training for writing a novel. It’s true you have to do it with no time on no sleep while you’re worried and harried and sitting in the car waiting for ballet to get out, but parenting is like novel-writing boot camp. Parenting taught me, for instance, how to convince a tiny, distrustful human that baths are treats, salad is yummy, homework is fun, and shots at the doctor are cause for celebration (because, likely as not, they are followed by chocolate croissants), all of which is great practice for making made-up stories real and truthful. And even before all that, within days really of becoming a parent, I had learned that making a plan was a sure path to disappointment, that unforeseen change was a virtual guarantee, that I had no control whatsoever over really anything so failure to, at the least, pack an extra change of clothes was foolish. This too is good prep for novel-writing since novels, like children, go where they will with very little say so from you and no warning, and try though you may to corral them, they’re faster and slipperier and louder than you every time.

“But mostly maybe the reason I write fiction is this: my child is inspiring. Children are.”

Novels are stout and insistent. They are a labor of love. They take a really long time to come all the way to fruition. For years at a time, you are either writing your novel or thinking about your novel, worrying about your novel, feeling guilty when you’re not giving it your undivided attention. You can’t even believe how messy they are. Sound familiar? Like your kids, your novels demand time and strength and vision and faith. They demand confabulation and compromise, editing and revision, future telling and hindsight and endless trying again, and from the blank page you start with forward, they’re absolutely terrifying. But parenting has taught me to tackle the every-day new and limitlessly daunting by getting up every morning (usually way too early) with little more than hope that I can do it and a promise I will try my best, and this strategy has put me in pretty good stead for both momming and noveling.

But mostly maybe the reason I write fiction is this: my child is inspiring. Children are. Our legacy is their future because that’s how it works, and that’s how writing a novel works too. My kid is the best reason of all for me to make up hope-filled worlds for her to grow up in and grow up into. A memoir would have described her past. A novel, I hope, writes into existence for her a better future.

Want to know the secrets behind writing those heart-pounding romance novels? @yulin.kuang spills all on the first episode of Bookmarked. Tune in to learn about her approach to writing complex female characters in the realm of romance — it’s an art form we’re in awe of.

Subscribe now on the @iheartpodcast app, @applepodcasts, or wherever you listen, and never miss a juicy conversation.
A juicy love triangle and the beach? Sign us up! ☀️

📷: @overbooked_pod
The best book recs come from the people who write the books we love 💛 

@RileyKeough, @The_PastaQueen, @emilyhenrywrites, and @ashleyelston are doing the ultimate lit check, sharing the romance, thrillers, memoirs, and fiction they're obsessing over. Which one are you reading (or listening to) next? 📚

Discover their full list of summer book recs on @AppleBooks!
"It hasn’t been entirely joyful, discovering her, unearthing her truths, and seeing her tears. But there has also been joy, and that’s what I cling to as I try to frame this into a story that feels true."

The Phoenix Pencil Company by @allisonkingwrites explores the importance of preserving stories from generation to generation and how they shape who we are to become.
Psst… have you heard? The first episode of Bookmarked, the new Reese’s Book Club podcast, just dropped with special guests @emilyhenrywrites and @yulin.kuang. Press play on the must-listen episode, and go behind the scenes each week with host @daniellerobay for your favorite stories, characters, and authors.

Listen in every Tuesday on the @iheartpodcast app, @applepodcasts, or wherever you listen. Got questions? Take the mic. Ring 501-291-3379 to ask, recommend, and discover.
"Human will is a particularly powerful magic."

On our TBR this week? Anita de Monte Laughs Last by @xochitltheg of course 💙
"Los Angeles was whatever you wanted it to be, and that was thanks to the constant influx of immigrants arriving with their dreams, not only from other countries, but from other states within the nation.”

Love this line about the beautiful diversity of the city from @mariaescandon in L.A. Weather.
Bookmarked, the new Reese’s Book Club podcast, launches tomorrow and we’re thrilled to announce our first guests, romance queens @emilyhenrywrites and @yulin.kuang! 

Listen in tomorrow and prepare to fall in love with their romance-filled episode.
We asked “what’s a book every woman should read once” and Bookthreads delivered 💙 Here are some of the most voted for titles by all of you. It might be time to bring these to the top of the TBR.